02/07/10

Held this idea in my mind for years but did not have the means to make it come to life. I have been working in my lab for months and I start to feel the strain of  this reclusion on my spirit, my and my body.
Yet, I feel stronger than ever before.
I started by building the skeleton in the heart of wintertime.
Bone by bone.
I should have finished soon because I already have glimpse of flesh in my day dreams and nightmares. I can´t wait for that, can´t wait to see if this multi-pieced body will shine with harmony and if it will inspire pity and distrust. But what I fear the most and what has been sucking energy out of my brain like a parasite is the absolute despair that I will face if my  Creature will have no soul.

05/07/10

I gave “it” a name : The Vertical Theory. It is an old one and is not definitive but this will be the name of the skeleton.
I gave myself two objectives :
finish the skeleton before the end of the summer.
finish the flesh before the end of the winter.
The autumn is going to be the moment of transition, the place where waters come together.
Yesterday, I did progress well, adding an important join to the legs : an unknown man is horse-riding to the group, event that insufflates fear and panic in the group and that will ultimately set thing in motion again.
I got in the evening, striking shocks as clear as melted ice.  The last image that came to me was the mother and her baby in the shelter cave drinking dripping water while waiting for the air outside to clear.

12/07/10

I have placed an important piece of the structure yesterday; Realizing hours latter how of a central and strategic position it was situated. From now on, the story is going to bend,  things that were still should go into motion, things that were being built in the shadows should come to light and the daemons that hide underwater will tear up the surface.Yes, I did have a central piece and this is one more step forward to the end.

From the horizon, a man is horse riding toward them. This event is frightening because of its lack of explanation and reason. Two sub-groups are created : the one that want to talk to this stranger and other that want to reject him for he is, to them, death. Ultimately, he will be the grain of sand that will disturb and breaks hell loose. He is now making he first steps towards them with a way out to freedom and life.

14/07/10

My work has been drastically slowing down until I realized that at this stage of the conception, the distance between the join should be increased. That make perfect sens, longer bone for the lower part of the body, with a reduction of the size towards the end. I am entering a new area of the story. It is a valuable assets to get  this precept.

I have also now a clear map of the geography :

21/07/10

Yestarday, a friend of mine send me a warning  : “beware of the villagers with their nasty forks and shovels“. I did follow her advice and when night fell down, I put all lights to death, double check the locks and stayed home, working far into the night with only one candle. I could not go to sleep since, that day, was an extremely creative one. Major ideas took shapes in my thoughts and where cascading in my mind for many hours. The strength of the process, the load of the work created high tensions in my body and I force myself into rest today so as to be be more efficient tomorrow. Before laying down, I ventured outside and did not see anything abnormal, seems like nobody was around during the night. I met with the priest and did not feel any tension in him.

I think I am safe to keep on…

21/08/10

I had to take time to distance myself for the Work and get an overview of the general structure of the body. With some heigth, I have noticed some imperfections and  am left with no choice but to correct them without damaging anything. Though time is running fast, I have to take my time because if imperfections of the flesh can contribute to the harmony and beauty of the whole, the structure can not have any flaws that could undermine all the efforts that I undertook in the past. Because I suddenly realized that once the period over, I will not be able to turn back, I have decided to run a check all joins of the story, and well as on the skull and support bones. I have identified the zones of problems :

• the several branches of the story have to be consolidated.
• the spine that carries the whole is strong, that I am sure but I have to test it flexibility.
• I have to prepare for the emotional bounds that it should be able to form with the audience.

With the first period coming to an end, new doubts arise, but I have to trust what has been built and start from there.
I will  move my lab to a new location both to avoid any risk of intrusion and to get a bigger space for the next step of the process.